You were sick last night. I got angry with you and hurt. But then you started to get really sick and I started to freak out. My heart can not take seeing you in pain. I so badly just want to hold you, even just for one moment. or at least see your face. I honestly do not know how you can say i dont care. I care about you more than my life or anything else. Dont play the victim with me. I will always care. Maybe you dont know the extent of my love for you. At 2 am when she was not responding to me i thought i actually lost you. my mind was blank yet at the same time it was racing with thoughts. I tried texting her but she this time was not responding back. I wanted to die if you died. you told me you loved me and if anything happened you were sorry. I didnt want to hear that. I dont like it when you get down on yourself and life. You have so much to live for. I stayed up until i passed out at what i think was 5 am. When i woke i had a text from the only person who truly matters to me. She calls me babe. :) I so badly want to be the one you run to instead of run away from. the one you cry to instead of cry about.

You say you are lost.
Let me be your light.
You say no one will save you.
Let me be your shining knight.
Yeah you've opened up the door from the start.
Let me not into your heart.


I want to be your hero again.

I want to find the words to make you feel comfort. I want you to love me again. I want you to want to spend time with me again. Whatever you are going through right now, i get it. we all get like this. where we just want to run and leave it all behind. She feels alone but she doesnt know I am here for her. I just wish you would stop hiding behind those tragic eyes of yours and open them up to see how many people love you. how I love you.

how ill always unconditionally love you.