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Waking up. Not good. I stayed up practically all night [till 5:30] making sure everything was alright and I was not needed. I wake up less than ten minutes ago and you have "been thinking about things." I do not know why this keeps happening. Is it because you are afraid to love me?, be loved? both? I could be wrong all together and this is a good "been thinking about things." but then again when is that ever good? it is practically the cliche line of "we need to talk." you have not responded to me yet, you get on lunch soon. I think I am going to be sick. Maybe a shower will help. Where is ambien when i need it?