mylife/counseling 250/fightclub

my counseling class is a fight club. when i was in counseling 250 today we split up into groups and discussed self-emotions and the like, even things we see in the world. My group [who are all AMAZING and wonderful people might i add] and i got to discussing peoples need to feel perfect. to do their best. this was brought up when I stated i used to feel the need to basically work myself to death and how its ridiculous how some people want to be perfect when obviously perfection at something is never possible. That was coupled with how people always spend money on trivial things in order to seem perfect.

"Fuck off with your sofa units and string green stripe patterns,
I say never be complete, I say stop being perfect, I say let...
lets evolve, let the chips fall where they may."

after that we discussed the relative idiocracy of people going so fast through life that they do not take the time to just chill. Like for example, a person who just keep's doing things, keep's going places, never taking the time to slow down and just take in the situation. At one point in the flurry and flutter of all this action, one could become a different person.

"You wake up at Seatac, SFO, LAX. You wake up at O'Hare, Dallas-Fort Worth,
BWI. Pacific, mountain, central. Lose an hour, gain an hour. This is your
life, and it's ending one minute at a time. You wake up at Air Harbor
International. If you wake up at a different time, in a different place,
could you wake up as a different person? "

haha. ty dear for reminding me about fightclub. i thought about it and about today and it kind of clicked. its funny how its applicable you know? Like now i am studying for a math exam tomorrow [wish me luck] and i know ill not be able to sleep even when im in bed

"When you have insomnia, you're never really asleep... and you're never
really awake."

I think fightclub is a book that is visibly applicable to everyday life. Hey. I like putting thigns together and making them fit. I like being clever.


- Oh I get it. It's very clever.
- Thank you.
- How's that workin' out for you?
- What?
- Being clever.
- Great.
- Keep it up then.