I'm melting. Home. What is home? I don't feel at home anywhere. Not at one house not at another house. I just feel like I am doomed to wander. These rolling depressions will be the end of me.  I feel at home with you. That is the only place I feel safe. When I hold you and look you in the eyes I see you won't hurt me, you'll never cheat on me, never abuse me, always be safe in your arms. It's almost 9:30am my day is just starting. I want to shake this freaking weird mood. I wish you would text me but you can't because of class. Ahha mater gay. (mater dei). God I just feel
Bad right now. I hurt when you hurt and I know you are feeling bad right now.  You tried to explain and I tried to understand. I love you. I'm just trying so hard to make you smile and happy with me. 

Seem to stop my breath. My head on your chest waiting to cave in

Every second I'm without you I'm a mess.