Day1

Well Today I had another bout with depression thanks to PTSD (post traumatic stress disorder)
It was great. I mean. Im walking along. Feeling freaking good. Then all of a sudden I stopped and felt sad. In the middle of a bright sunny day in California. I felt cold and very small.

Not small in the sense of size ( Im like 6 foot people ), but in the context of a person. I realized whilst in my state of depression that I am just one person. one tiny person, not even a percent of the world's population. It did not help I was standing next to a basketball player which then made me feel twice as small.

To make matters worse, when I got in my car to chill before I went to math tutoring I decided to listen to some music. Well turns out my CD player was on the band "Tokyo Police Club". Now they are a good Indie rock group but when in a depression fueled mood their songs are just straight out depressing!

Of course some songs are upbeat but in general because of the way they sing and the like, it just gives one a mood of blah!

I finish the night stuck in a mood. eating push up popsicles listening to karen O and the kids.

Thanks World. love you too